Last week, I posted a blog summarizing 7 benefits of aligning your life with the cycles of the moon. Today, I will expand on benefit number one: keeping moon time supports intentional living. I will share from my life what has manifested from the intention I set for this moon, and how the MoonMind process has allowed for that manifestation. If this blog inspires questions, please comment or reach out to me, as I would love to engage you on the topic of keeping moon time.
My Beaver Moon, 2024 intention is: To delight in being unique, invaluable, and essential to others; to be a game-changer who emerges us into a new realm of possibility!
Each moon I also set tangible physical and financial goals. However, my first focus is on my mental and emotional states and my way of being because this is what creates the energy that draws (or repels) my desired outcomes. In order to manifest beyond our present situation, we must become someone new. The moon-aligned creative process will reveal to us that which needs to transform internally in order to manifest externally. For me, what emerged was the opportunity to heal my lifelong battle with low self-worth. If you deal with low self-worth, you know it sucks. There's just no other way to put it. It sucks. You feel unworthy of all blessings and this makes manifestation impossible. Before this moon cycle, I did not know I had this issue, and I did not know that it was exactly what has been getting in the way of manifesting along my true purpose for decades.
Big intentions require big lessons; big lessons require big growth. Creation requires friction and expansion involves releasing pain. This has been one intense month! In the context of my present-day relationships, I got to deal with the feelings of unworthiness that have plagued me since childhood. How did the lunar process do all of this for me this month? I'll share with detail, so that you can see how this works, and imagine moon magic going to work on you and your life!
Each year at this time, we go as a family to visit my mom in Tucson area. This year, our family has expanded and we were accompanied by my son's new wife. My son was married in August, so these two young people are very much newlyweds. I adore my new daughter-in-law, the three of us have traveled well together, and I have always enjoyed an exceptionally beautiful and stress-free closeness with my son. I was expecting smooth-sailing. My mother and my sister-in-law had both warned me at the wedding, "You know, she'll have to come first for him now!" I rejected and resisted that advise. "Come first? What is coming first, anyway? There's no need to be first and second. That's a limiting belief!"
Well there was a snafu involving a car early on in the trip; I felt overlooked and slighted, and in a hot minute I was triggered and upset. I did what I do when upset, which is spread it around like soft butter on bread, so others can be upset, too. When my son didn't come to my rescue (essentially taking "my side" in the issue), the latent self-worth issues I'd been hiding beneath the beauty and busyness of raising him reared up like an angry dragon. My brain became a cespool of fear, anger, worry, and rejection and what was actually a small issue of adjusting to sharing my son with his new wife became an enormous problem that kept me up the entire night in a tearful and sweaty panic.
It wasn't until I found myself researching how much it would cost to change my flight to go home early that I stopped and said to myself, "Wait a minute. This is a very familiar feeling. In fact, this feeling goes all the way back to around age 5. If this is such a familiar feeling, how could it be my son or my daughter-in-law's fault? They weren't even born when this began."
I used hypnosis and dream analysis to go deeper into my own understanding, and that is when I became aware of the self-worth issues I needed to heal in order to "delight in being unique, invaluable, and essential to others; to be a game-changer emerges us into a new realm of possibility!"
I'm still single because I've avoided intimacy and protected my heart in motherhood like a fox in a den. If I want to enjoy the intimacy of a loving, romantic relationship (and I do!), then I've got to take on healing my low self-worth and whatever else I have going on that's getting in my way. I found a wealth of resources to aid in this process, Crappy Childhood Fairy and Teal Swan being my favorites. I saw that I need to allow my son and his new wife some space. After all, the three of us didn't get married! I chose to see my son not as a child to whom I need to cling, but as a man who will love me unconditionally. I chose to see my daughter-in-law not as competition, but as the honored receiver of a gift I'm giving with love and joy. Whereas continuing to be needy, volatile, and clingy would have likely manifested the very rejection I feared, this attitude has raised my confidence, given me power, and allowed space for love to thrive all around.
This is one example of the rapid growth that happens when I align my creative process with the lunar cycle. Can you imagine the world that will unfold when we are doing this together?